I Exist!!

Morning sometimes comes up with a lots of surprises.
I had pre-planned my day with my father and studies a day before.
But I didn't knew that a new experience was waiting for me.
I woke up with a friends call at 9 and was asked to come to a picnic.
Still in my sleep i refused the offer.
Then came call of another of my friend and was again asked to go to a different place for picnic.
This dilemma isn't new to me as it keeps on occurring (sometimes 3-4 times a day).
Being the arbiter most of the times in such cases, I am the one who is cursed for delays and negations.
But luckily this time one of the programs were canceled and I was happy that I won't be the cause of another program failure.
So I took of for Pushkar and visited Pachkund(Bathing place of Pandavas) on the way.
The place was quite peaceful but not a good point to hang around with friend.
So we were headed for Sunset Point and Brahma Temple.
On the way we visited a Sindhi temple where we sat for a while.
Being a passionate photographer I took my camera out and started taking pics of the beautiful place.
The Pushkar lake is in ruins these days and is completely dry.
What have we done to our mother nature? Instead of nurturing it, we are just pressing the resources to that extent that they no longer remain resources.
Its like leaving your parents when they need you the most once you grow up.
So after this heartbreaking photo session I turned to my so called friends where I could still feel some smile, unlike the lake, for their photos.
But alas!!
They refused to get photographed and moreover showed mistrust in fellow people.
This situation is again interesting as thoughts pondered over me.
If this was the case then why did they came with us to a place away from there homes??
Isn't this also a degree of mistrust within their souls and their hearts??
How do you define trust??
Well the answer is not with the hypocrites atleast.
I think trust is a kind of relation which one shares with the other by believing in each other.
Believing someone blindly is Faith but that is the higher degree which could only be related to God.For some people it may be a mistake but for me it is a way to recognise myself and also to have that spiritual feeling that
Hey! I Exist!!

Destressing...

For me destressing is doing any fun activity.
So after yesterday's dance party i am quite calm and composed and not being the usual powerhouse.
Energy really comes from within.
It is us who have to look inside for its utilisation.
When i was told to rest after the power packed dance performance , i replied back immediately that this was something that gives me more energy.
I quoted that," Dancing is silent poetry", which i had read many years back but it came to me in an instant.
One more thing i would like to add is that writing a blog is also quite destressing which might be as much stressful for the other lot to read..

Nuts

A Ray of hope..

Waking up at 4 in the morning can be fun sometimes.
I had to drop my mother to the railway station for her train to Pune(her last visit as bhaiya will now be in Delhi).
As i am not used to wake up so early, I was quite tired and so just got back home and slept again.
Obviously I am not able to recall what metabolism was taking place in my body, but I was quite aware of the thoughts that were coming to me.
The thoughts not being the usual ones, were related to The Almighty.
I just could not believe myself that I was thanking Him from my soul and that too in English with Hindi as my mother tongue.
The thanks giving process was in a different manner.
As people say that dreams vanish as soon as you wake up so after praising and thanking God i woke up and made notes of whatever i could remember in my Moto L-6.
It goes like this:
I thank thee for my existence,
I thank thee for making me learn,
I thank thee for giving me experience,
I thank thee for giving me a vision,
I thank thee for sharing His knowledge,
.............
.........

and rest I could not remember..
So it was a one of a kind experience in my life.
Bringing in practice what I am gaining is again a worthy experience.
So I tried and was astonished to get relieved when i treated no one below or above my intellect.
With God in the morning I have felt relief in the night.
So I think here comes The Ray Of Hope......

Nuts

After a long time...

Getting to writing is not something new to me.
Writing small and long verses has been an old habit.
Blog writing is something that has fascinated me in a way that no one can expect and that i can't explain.
This being the first writing of mine, might be boring to some lot.
But at the same time i am writing for myself and that's the biggest reason for writing this blog.
So let me give it a beginning and leave the rest to me obviously.

Oh! What A Friend

It is said
"a friend in need is a friend indeed."
but even a friend indeed is not a friend in need.
what i have learnt from life
is a moral that goes even in your life.
but yet i m a fool,
to put my mistakes still, in a pool.
the pool which was overwhelmed,
took one more of it, none helped.
what i have seen is nothing but truth,
people r friends just showing elephants tooth.
i remember,
when one of my friend was in pain,
i cried but all disdain.
i m smeone very solitary,
in this world full of mystery.
everyone here is to ditch,
just forget about any remembrance hitch.
to love someone is a waste of emotion,
but what i thought is a nice illusion.
none is a friend,none is a foe,
u have come alone n similar u will go.
whom i thought right,
was the one very bright,
in making me a fool,
and laugh himself having all good mood.
the world is an actor,
kicking u all around as a bactor.
they just wait for the chance,
to hurt u at the right instance.
is there any word like ignorance in friendship,
oh! sorry, this is foeship.
they are al just spectators,
of me n my sense of humour.
what can i do if i cant say no,
even to my friendly foe.
they use me up in vain,
and i m left with all the pain.
dey wnt to use me in any possible way,
to make visits with me n make me pay.
i have been chewd,
coz they r being shrewd.
i wnt to go back home,
to meet those who r my own.
now i know the world is not mine,
its me who is built for it.
to get caught in some false words,
words of love n affection,
which r just words,
sorry! sugary sweet words,
meant to kill me n my life,
my soul still searching for a TRUE FREN,
A TRUE LOVE.